On hating computers
27 Jul, 07
Lately I found myself cussing at computers more than usual. Actually, not only computers, but almost all technology I encounter in my everyday life just annoys me very quickly now. Now, for a total geek like me, that’s a very strange thing to discover. I used to really like computers, programming, all the great things you could do with them… and now it seems more like a chore, something I have to do, but if I had a choice, wouldn’t. Even just using the computer, for example to sort through my photos is almost painful since it’s so slow and feels like everything is just getting in my way all the time.
Photography itself hasn’t grown stale or annoying yet. It’s a really stressful job at times, and it’s by far not as easy as it might seem, but it’s good stress. I like doing it, I believe I’m doing a good job with it, I’m getting to know people and people like my photos. It gives me a feeling of achievement.
On the other hand, programming has lately been either for myself (to fix stupid bugs or get missing features), or largely invisible and/or unsuccessful (work). It’s like continually running against a wall, without any personal gain or growth, or worse, just a whole lot of negativity wearing me down. I barely had any time to work on the chosen projects, which makes me feel even worse for kinda, sorta, abandoning them for so long.
Add to that the other blows in my personal life in the last few months, which I won’t detail here, and the result is not very pretty.
I need to reevalute my life.
All kind words and good tips are duly appreciated.
